By M. Anjelais
Published by Chicken House/Scholastic
On August 26th 2014
Genres: Young Adult Contemporary
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The closest he will ever come to happiness is when he's hurting her. Will she let him? A beautiful and twisted story of first love and innocence lost--written when the author was just eighteen.
Sphinxie and Cadence. Promised to each other in childhood. Drawn together again as teens. Sphinxie is sweet, compassionate, and plain. Cadence is brilliant, charismatic. Damaged. And diseased. When they were kids, he scarred her with a knife. Now, as his illness progresses, he becomes increasingly demanding. She wants to be loyal--but fears for her life. Only the ultimate sacrifice will give this love an ending.
This is a story that follows a young girl and a young guy, their mothers growing up were best friends. They made this strange plan that when they grew up, their children would grow up and end up together. When Sphinxie and Cadence were little they were close just like the mothers hoped, but it didn’t take long to figure out that there was something wrong with Cadence. His irradic behavior and temper set in motion some events that no parent can ignore. And the mothers somewhat grew apart, and so did Sphinxie and Cadence. It is when Cadence become ill that Sphinxie ends together with him again.
Character wise, I will start with Sphinxie. She was naive, and some decisions that I couldn’t understand. Why put yourself through someone verbally or emotionally abusing you, but she does. I thought to myself, can she really not see what it going on, and I spent most of the time frustrated with her. Cadence was everything that I know about what a sociopath is. He’s manipulative and his mood swings were frightening. Even at the end, I still had not found one redeemming quality in him. Sphinxie’s mother wasn’t much better, and against her father wishes she still allows her contact with Cadence. Cadence’s mother accepted his behavior as everything normality. It was hard to find a reason to connect with any of them.
The plot itself it where this lost me even more. There were so many things that happened that just wasn’t right but at the same time it was addictive. Anyway, both Sphinxie and Cadence’s mother had a wonderful friendship growing up, and it wasn’t any wonder that they wanted to still be friends when they grew up, and especially their children being friends. Cadence got mad at Sphinxie and took a knife and cut her, in her face, then he killed a bird and never felt a thing, no sympathy, regret or emotion. Excuses were made and life went on though. Cadence was diagnosed with being a sociopath when he got a little older, but when he became ill, Sphinxie and her Mom went to visit and Sphinxie felt this draw to him, which was something I never understood. He treated her horribly, he’d yell, throw things, shut himself in his room, you name it, he did it. I think I kept reading just to see if anything ever changed, maybe as he got sicker he would be different. Sadly, I didn’t get anything more than what I did the entire book.
Once I finished reading, I still wasn’t sure what I thought about this. It is a book that sticks with you, just in the way I would have liked it to. I will say, that I recommend checking out some other reviews before writing this one off, you might have a different reaction to this than I did.